Another?

My life is seriously one curve ball after another....
To start things off I will explain why I say this. I was having an amazing day yesterday. I got my first final out of the way early, I worked out (which I do everyday), I turned in my final portfolio, and then I wet snowboarding with my two best friends that I have been skiing with since I was young, and then I was pumped to go to the Library to study for my next final today. But then while I was studying in the library on my high from snowboarding I get a text from a good friends phone from Utah State that reads. To all the friends of Johnny Pat, we just barely located his phone and wanted to let all of you know that Johnny passed away friday night and his funeral will be held Tuesday at 10 a.m. in Evanston... This is another good friend who died young of a freak accident. I have currently lost 4 friends in the past 8 months, honestly what else could go wrong. This came at a time where my life seemed to be getting a little bit more normal, more upbeat. But the death of Johnny Pat brought back all the memories of the heart ache and pain I felt this whole summer and the past 8 months from Matt's death. He was a good friend of Matt's as well and we all had a good year together in the dorms at Utah State. I talked to Johnny Thursday and we had plans to do something over Christmas break. It is crazy to me that someone's life can be over in an instance. I even kissed Johnny haha. Life is a hard reality. My heart is aching, aching for Matt, I miss him with all my being, aching for Matt's family, for Johnny Pat's family (especially during the holidays). I know that it is God's plan and one thing that makes me smile is that Johnny Pat and Matt are probably in Heaven together, helping each other out. I will love them forever and know I will see them again.

Happy Valley

I am finally here! Happy Valley Utah (Provo). I just barely moved down to live with Liz and Lauren on Sunday and it is still a little surreal! It is awesome that I get to live with my two best friends in a community where all the boys are potential loves! Haha to say the least. I am ready to start this new journey of my life and continue to heal with the two people who know me best. I love the fact that there are always people around and I am no longer lonely! I wanted to update you all on my new big move haha!


Much love xoxo A

SNOW

Where is our beautiful snow?
I got my Sundance pass on Wednesday and you know what it made me want to SNOWBOARD...
one problem there is currently no snow. Is there any in the forecast I don't know?
IT BETTER COME SOON!

XOXO-A

T.H.A.N.K.S.G.I.V.I.N.G

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!
Sorry it has been so long since my last post and that this one is way over due! This Thanksgiving was a great day spent with cousins, aunts, uncles, mom, dad, and anna. It was a lot of fun! I just wanted to name 10 things I am thankful for:
1. My Family
2. My Friends
3. The beautiful place where I live (Park City)
4. The Atonement
5. Matt Knoop
6. Trials
7. The snow
8. Music, technology
9. My health for example: two working legs and arms, ten toes and ten fingers :)
10. Laughing

Go ahead lets hear what you are thankful for! There are a lot of reasons why I shouldn't feel thankful for my life right now and you know honestly sometimes I am pretty bitter about the turns and events that have taken place the past 7 months, but I am thankful for my life and everything about it. I am thankful for all of you and your examples, strength, support, and love. I hope I show my gratitude to you frequently and not just on a day where that is the focus. I hope it was a great day full of love, food, and cheer!


xoxo- A

february 23, 1988- april 21, 2008

I don't know why, but for some reason I posted these pictures from Matt's funeral. The worst day of my life. I had to share them and I haven't even been able to look at them until today really. I do love my life, I love all the people in it, but life is hard. I know I am not the only one who has lost someone so unexpected, but that doesn't make it any easier. Someday the love I had for Matt and the love he always gave to me will be filled, that void will be filled with the love of someone else. All it takes it time thats what I have to keep reminding myself. My heart aches, my body hurts, tears come and go all the time, but I know I will see Matt again, I know this was his plan, his journey. I was given the gift to have been so so so close with him, to be his best friend. that is my plan.

Hair...

Posting happens frequently when I am bored at work... I decided that I would take some pictures of my hair for those of you who have not seen it. The pictures aren't that great to show off the hair and it is more wavy today because I was a little lazy. The pictures are also a little embarrassing I have to admit, but I was bored so whatever! I hope you like it!

New York Fashion Experience

So I was in the Communications department yesterday, declaring my major (Communications with an emphasis in Public Relations) and I saw this poster about an internship/semester in New York City for Fashion or Media! I grabbed a little info card and have just been checking it out. I seriously think it is the answer! It sounds absolutely perfect, I don't know why, but it does. I want you to read about it cause I can't even seem to explain! Check it out www.marist.edu/nyfe The New York Fashion Experience could be my answer!

Reflection

I have been feeling a little bit numb today and its not because of the cold grey weather, it is because of grief and pain. Some days my heart aches for the loss of my best friend and some days I can smile, laugh, and be happy. I have so many memories with Matt and when I think about them I laugh, smile, and cry all at the same time. I am over joyed that I was able to be so close to Matt and to share so many memories and things with him. He was truly my best friend. I know he is still watching over me and helping me get through this time of my life. I feel him with me constantly and I know he is with all the people who love him. I have to live each day, one day at time and it is getting a little bit easier, but my heart still physically hurts when I look back on the day that I found out my best friend had died. I can do this I know I can! I miss you and love you Elder Matthew Lawrence Knoop.






New Years 2007!





I have the best friends in the world, we will all miss Matt and continue being the best friends.






This is exactly who Matt and I are.... DORKS! We had so much fun together at Utah State and I cherish that time I was able to spend with him everyday. We were punks and everyone knew it! Matt gave me that orange trucker hat the night before he left because he knew how much I hated it when he wore it. I still have it.






This picture is hilarious! This was our first USU Howl... Matt was Hugh Hefner and I was Daisy Duke, hahah the funny thing is Matt wouldn't normally be caught dead in this costume. He did save me all night long from the many creepers. He was always looking out for me.






I took this picture right before one of our intramural soccer games up at Utah State.... We were the only two good or should I say awesome players on the team! Matt was constantly yelling at me, but in the end was always amazed at my skills! He always forced me to work harder and do better and he still is!






I had the lucky opportunity to wear Matt's soccer number on my stomach at the state soccer finals (which they won)! He loved it! I think his mom took 20 pictures of just me and him hahah.... I always loved Matt's drive on the soccer field. All growing up his dad was our soccer coach and had the same drive, he taught me to have that drive and Matt just kept teaching me.






This was during our Senior trip to St. George... We all had a blast and to this day laugh about the events that occurred on this trip. This was on our hike of Angels Landing and on the way down Matt kept referring to the chain you hold on to as the Iron Rod... He was always setting an example no matter where we were or who we were with. That is how he left this world.





Matt hated taking pictures, but Liz and I insisted on him taking pictures of us at Seminary graduation. He is the reason we graduated. He always told us we had to go to Seminary!





Senior prom was the greatest... I remember the night before Matt locked Connor (my date) and I in a room to "make out" while he very "sneakily" tried to spy on us not making out from the bedroom window. He thought he was so hilarious! That is something I loved about him.






This is a picture of Matt and I at our Graduation Party, we sat next to each other basically for 4 days and I don't know if Matt could have taken it much longer, but I wouldn't have wanted to share that with anyone else, but him and I know he felt the same ha!

CHOP, CHOP

I am getting a hair cut this week or next hopefully and I need help picking between these two pictures that I like. I am leaning more towards the one of Nicole Richie, but my mother loves the one of Jenny Humphrey for those of you who love Gossip Girl like me, know her new hairstyle. Let me know what you think!

Zoo Animals on the lose!

Here are just a few photos from a dance party I went to last night with some friends in Provo! I had a blast and things are looking up! I did make my entire costume so please admire my hard work! I hand sewed all the patches on the dress and made my headband! I thought it was pretty cute. Enjoy and Happy Halloween to all! I will have more pictures I am sure! We had a Zebra, Giraffe, Leopard, and our Zoo Keeper Brian!

H.A.L.L.O.W.E.E.N

I finally decided what I am going to be for Halloween.... Drum Roll please

A GIRAFFE!

I am pretty excited about it and I am starting to make my costume today. I am going to Provo for this dance at the apartment complex I am going to be living in with Liz and Laur. They are being a Zebra and a Leopard. We did recruit our guy friend Jeff to be our Zoo Keeper! I am getting really excited. I will post pictures after the fact!

Serious Help!

I thought I was a pretty tech savvy person, but goes to show that I have no idea what I am doing on this blog of mine and it looks pretty pathetic help me out people!

Welcome!

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